Deficient and insufficient

something's lacking.
but i'm still breathing.
i'm still here.

Comfort

comfort smells like bacon
... vegan bacon?

Finders keepers

this was meant for me today.

Bright lights and confetti

too much ecstasy to hold up

Sex

not everyone fits

Whole

envy of what it must feel to be whole

Bruce Lee

fuck yeah imma high five bruce lee.

still a tourist in my own city and loving it.

Words that matter

i: oh my god, you don't understand how much I'm loving you right now!

you: girl, i've always been loving you.

i'm the luckiest girl in the world and i've known that since then.

Stumble upon

old love letters that are still so relevant.

i was 19...
now i'm 25

can i learn?

Therapy

bleed and emote

Melt

feel my body
on my paper

Stars.

the stars shone brighter and closer this weekend than ever.

i fear these stars fall. i fear these stars are fake. i fear these stars are plastic.
i fear these stars need more energy. i fear these stars do not belong to me.

i pray these stars give me faith. i pray these stars give me hope.
i pray these stars watch me grow. i pray these stars are for me.

will these stars still shine tomorrow... the next day... the next day... the next day...?
i fear not
i pray so
i believe anything

i believe in pain
i believe in guilt
i believe in stars

Moral support

i ask myself "what the fuck am i doing"?

they yell at me "what the fuck are you doing"?!

Password: ultimate

who would've guessed we were all arguing before this was taken?!

happy birthday brent and here's to no more bad decisions and us growing old together.

Nature

peace and company must come naturally...

i'm scared it may not.
i'm hopeful it can.

Trust

Apt 517,

at 4:45am, i could've invited myself in,  had breakfast, and stolen some underwear... tsk, tsk for nice neighbors...

except i've already stolen a piece of fruit from the farmers market basket left on your doorstep every thursday.

i do feel bad...
but at least you got to keep your underwear today.

2008

five years ago, i wrote this... amongst other deathly things.
four hours ago, i found this... hidden deep so i'd forget.

tonight, the stars are just as beautiful...
... even from where i stand.

finally, life is so much more beautiful than the stars.
i don't mind seeing them from this distance anymore.

one day, i will be closer to them, and what a sight they'll be.
but right now, I'm content looking at them from here.

with my heart still beating.
with my blood still warm.
with my eyes still open.
with my selfish wounds healing.

Transportation devices and ray guns

if you want to go fast,
go alone.
if you want to go far,
go together.

words i've read months ago,
but only realized these past few weeks what it truly meant.

maybe it's time to go together.

Distractions

no distraction is enough when my mind's so conditioned

but someone must trust

Pages

pages full of thoughts...
pages full of philosophy...
pages full of dirt...
pages full of beauty...
pages full of potential...
pages full of apology...
pages full of confession...
pages full of epiphany...
pages full of love...
pages full of hate...
pages full of hope.

all 11 pages.