Intermission- holding hands

my hands forget how to hold
how to feel shameless
how to feel proud

my hands build, write, type, pleasure
but do not hold

my hands feel pain, wind, hot and cold
but not warmth

my hands have scratched backs, pulled hair, and have held faces to look into eyes
but have not had emotion

my hands have been tricked
my hands have been lied to

they've held lies, deceit, and fakery
but not sensibility

my hands hold ________
my hands hold history
my hands held his at one point
now, my hands only hold my head up
and is proud that it's empty

my hands are tired, they are empty
but not defeated

my hands want to hold ________
my hands want